i don’t know what is wrong with me.

whenever i am alone and have time to think,

i have this sensation that something is wrong,

that i am waiting for something to happen.

there is a thud thudding in me,

i feel restless.

i am constantly trying to remember what i am forgetting to do.

i keep refreshing my e-mail inbox,

and keep checking the post-box

but i don’t know what news i am waiting for.

have no idea what i am expecting

for some reason i keep anticipating

a ground breaking, mind boggling explosion.

or a sign, or revelation from the unknown.

directing me, guiding me, in the rightful direction.

but for what?

when i step back and take time to observe

all i can say is that it’s me in a jumbled state of mind

with the thesis approaching the closing

time in this land coming to an end

time to say bye to friends made here

time to embrace what i left behind

time to face up to the disharmonic waves in my life

time to once and for all decide what I want